The Sweetness

So I can't help but have a meal now and feel like I need dessert afterward. I mean, no matter how full I get, or how delicious my lunch or dinner is, I'm always yearning for some sweetness on my tongue once I've downed my last bite. It's an intoxicating feeling sometimes, strong enough that I search or even scour my food stores looking for even a smidgen of sugar, hoping I'll find a misplaced candy bar or truffle. When I find something, oh boy does it hit the spot. It's like in that moment all that exists is the saccharine sensation sweeping itself across my palate, fulfilling my feening. And if I don't find something: it just doesn't feel like a complete meal. It feels like I've cheated myself out of a legitimate meal.
It's nice to indulge when I can, but man am I disappointed when I can't curb the craving.

I feel like this is so eerily similar to my relationship with God. I've tried so many substitutes, knowingly and unknowingly, willingly and unwillingly. I've made my home at the bottom of the rum bottle: didn't do the trick. I thought relationships with girls would fill the gap: (unbeknown to me, they only made it wider). I thought a career could be a stable platform to build from: but jobs are like shifting sands. I find television, internet, movies and books are a great way to waste time... The only thing that has sated the hunger in my heart has been the word of God.

What a revelation! I'm sure to any believer, anyone who has been transformed by the love of God in their lives, this revelation is a familiar one and the theology behind it is a founding principle of your faith. But unfortunately for me, it's one that needs to be re-reveled over and over in my life.

Thank you, God, for placing people around me that draw me closer to you.